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• Fears to Confront and Overcome in the New Year: Part 2

  January 5, 2025

  What fears have been holding me back, and how can I get past them? There are a few on the list, largely holdovers from graduate school and the oppression of academia. It's not that academia just crushes everybody. For some people, it's an incredible environment. But for many, a PhD is a psycholog...

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• Fears to Confront and Overcome in the New Year: Part 1

  January 5, 2025

  As I have entered a new phase of my life outside of academia the past year, I've realized that I've built up some hangups that are slowly holding me back from achieving my goals. Maybe this sounds like self-help talk, but for me I can see the hangups are real. Subconscious or otherwise, but they&...

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• My Old Diary Description

  January 2, 2025

  This  was my profile description until recently, probably written in the early 00's when I was still a teenager. Now it makes me laugh, but I also understand why I felt the way I did about those things. Some of these things have stuck with me over time, while my feels about others have changed.&h...

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• First Day, New Year

  January 2, 2025

  We had a visit from Allison, aka Luna from our BM camp last night, along with Michelle who came over a little later at 9. It ended up being a simple way to ring in the new year, playing board games with friends, having a few drinks, hanging out with the cats and listening to…

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• 2025 Visions and Intentions

  December 31, 2024

  Look back and looking forward. Time, within this journal, seemed to moved slowly back in 1999 and 2000 and 2001, and then faster and faster, with years skipped and months passed on by. Memory and experience have smeared out, across islands and deserts, mountains and forests, through the alleyways...

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• 2024 Behind Me, Thoughts and Gratitude

  December 30, 2024

  2024 was a big year of change for me, with many great highlights. I left academia and moved from Chicago to Oakland the year before, and ended up jobless, but in late 2023 I was hired at a space startup. I didn't quite have the skills they needed when I went to my interview in…

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• Returning to OpenDiary for 2024, 2025, and Perhaps Beyond

  December 30, 2024

  I started this journal many years ago, when the web was young and exploring "the internet" meant using AOL, AltaVista, and IRC. Times have changed, and after OpenDiary went down I started keeping paper journals. It was good for me, and I appreciate having those artifacts from different periods in...

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• A Friday the 13th

  April 16, 2018

  Friday was a mess of a day. It started with coffee at the house, then office hours at school. There was actually someone at my office hours (it's usually been quiet this past month) who I helped on mechanics and conservation of momentum. She had an example at 12:30 and man, considering how little...

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• Dreams After Kalalau

  April 6, 2018

  The trip to Kalalau was an amazing adventure - one I've done 5 times now and never had the chance to document thoroughly here on opendiary. I've written all about it in my paper journals, but it's nice to be able to type entries out too.  Dreams of the woods This year, the dreams afterward…

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