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• Would writing again be a good thing?

  July 20, 2013

  Now I'm a mother, I have less and less me time. I'd like to start writing here again to regain some "me time" and clarity on my life. But I am wondering if writing will just bring out the darkness in me like times gone by. There is so little time in the day -…

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• Nostalgia

  February 7, 2013

  I rarely have time these days to write or do much of anything. I have an almost 2 year old. Her birthday is in 2 weeks. A lot has changed. A lot. When you're a parent there are responsibilities (endless responsibilities). There are highlights and low points. There are times you wish you coul...

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• Hello I’m here

  January 29, 2013

   I am wondering if I should start a new diary or continue with this one. It's been a LONG time.... I finally found this old diary and managed to log back in. Anyone out there reading?

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• The Worst things to say to Someone with Depression

  August 3, 2010

  The Worst Things to Say to Someone With Depression By Kristen Stewart and Everyday Health Staff Medically reviewed by Pat F. Bass III, MD, MPH   You may feel awkward about speaking to a loved one with depression, especially if you don't understand the condition. Test your knowledge about wha...

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• Day 2 – hospital inpatient

  October 2, 2006

  I'm not doing so good today. I cried during Eating Disorder group therapy. And then broke down with the therapist who ran this group, after group was over and everyone left. The reason? Same as always. Ongoing dissociation and confusion in my head, where I can never maintain a consistent stable t...

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• Hospital computer access…woo hoo

  October 1, 2006

  Suprisingly since my last admission, the hospital has bought a computer for patients ...and it has internet access. Only ONE computer though, in the 71 bed hospital. But as a great chunk of the hospital is mental patients and geriatric patients, so far I haven't encountered much competition to us...

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• Hospital Admission

  September 30, 2006

  Well true to form in suprising me, the hospital called this morning (I hadn't called them the other day to cancel, just so you know). And they have a place available today...so I have to be admitted this afternoon. This is short notice, of course. I have been running around like a mad person tryi...

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• Strange * Edit + photo

  September 28, 2006

  Well..... don't I feel weird today. Today I feel alive, happy, vibrant and carefree. I have no recollection of having an eating disorder or disconterted feelings about anything. I feel like things are just normal, on-going and yeah, just "take what comes". I have decided to exercise aga...

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• Advice please

  September 26, 2006

  This is a conversation i had with Damien earlier on msn. While he was at work. I don't know what to make of his words. Advice would be gratefully appreciated. ****************** Elizabeth says:The private hospital called confirming my details. Admission officer said at the earliest would be a wee...

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