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• Trying to find things to occupy my mind.

  September 6, 2024

  I had a major break down a whole 7 days ago today, this time last Friday I was literally begging and crying for the hospital to admit me to mental health and help me. (its 10:15pm here now). in the end the mental health nurse gave me a valium in an envelope told me I…

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• The Shitty Ones

  September 2, 2024

  Not everyone out there has good intentions Some people are just shit But those that twist and change your stories are deep in the shitty ones. I need to find new friends. not fully grown women who are worse than kids. surely someone out there will be in my corner  

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• Yesterday Was Good Today Was A Struggle

  August 27, 2024

  Yesterday I woke up feeling fantastic, no aches, no pains, no vertigo and no anxiety. Wish I could say the same about today though. Today has been a struggle with all of the above, plus I had the added bonus of having some stomach cramps, vomiting and nausea which I hyper fixated on and struggle&...

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• Is This What I Am Here For?

  August 24, 2024

  The past week has been a heck of emotions and anxious feelings, but today has been good. My oldest daughters 16 yr old friend is in foster care and has been running away from her carer, she's been skipping her cocktail of medications. After running away multiple times last night and self harming ...

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• Roller coaster Ride

  August 22, 2024

  Life is literally a roller coaster ride for me at the moment. I look forward to the moments in between where the way may be a little bumpy but I can see the positive's that lay ahead. It's the ups and downs in between that have the most impact at this moment, and riding them…

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• Living in an Anxiety Nightmare

  August 22, 2024

  I am sick and tired of these anxious feelings that take over and control my body on an almost daily basis. The vertigo, nausea, my body feeling heavy, ears ringing, aches and pains through my body, heart feeling like its racing, vision blurring, and the need to curl up into a ball and cry, but&he...

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• Popping Candy My Anxiety

  August 19, 2024

  It's 11:07pm and Iam currently sitting in bed with a lavender heat pack wrapped around my neck, listening to Bilateral Stimulation music (soft BLS tones), with a true crime documentary eating popping candy. Ive had 2 minor anxiety attacks today, in between my attacks I feel fantastic. calm and re...

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• Just Another Day

  August 19, 2024

  Another day spent with my husband sitting in the shower with his twin brother sitting in the bathroom talking to him. I get that they're identical twins and all that, but when they're sick they literally hang off each others asses and its so annoying. Everything that my husband and I should discu...

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• Healing Sucks. Its gunna be a long one

  August 18, 2024

  Now that all my kids and my husband's niece who is now in my full time care and has been for the past 12 months are asleep, I can take some time to actually write without having to chase around and growl at 6 kids 14 yrs old and under... My eldest Logan was 15…

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