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What Am I Doing?

October 10, 2024
I need to write an entry because it's been a few days, I am feeling off without my older kids. Although I know they will be home tomorrow, I am feeling anxious again and trying to keep things under control. My husband is home and pretty much completely ignoring me, he doesn't even try to…
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