Recent Entries

• guilt

  January 30, 2019

  This shit hurts.   I didn't even want to write it here.   I didn't want to remember that here, in this very diary, 16 years ago, I had a son.   and now he's gone.   and sometimesI get so guilty and so wracked with this terrible feeling of just being misplaced. and nobody…

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• And then I tried to plan a trip online…

  June 5, 2018

  You'd think... with all this goddamn technology... that I could plan a simple trip, including stops and such, with a simple program. NOPE. It's like trying to decipher a secret goddamn code. These apps and sites have like one or two things I want and then completely mess it up by not having somet...

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• oh crap, i’m writing again

  June 3, 2018

  I wonder if the person who hates me is upset. OOPS... YOU JUST MADE THIS "UNINTELLIGENT GARBAGE CUNT" WANT TO WRITE MORE. I guess that wasn't the intended result since apparently I don't know how to write, I'm a hypocritical slag with mental issues and "shit in my soul" (I don't even know what th...

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• it didn’t hurt tho

  May 31, 2018

  lol. I just got told to not come back because I'm a garbage trash cunt.   This place is still the same.

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• Busy and sick and crazy

  November 6, 2017

  Hiiii....I've been so sick. I want to be able to write every day but the time just spirals away. I spend a lot of time dropping kids off at school and then picking them up. lol. In between I'm usually doing laundry and changing diapers and trying to keep my head from spinning off.And now…

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• A tiny update

  October 26, 2017

  Sometimes it's hard for me to write every day. I feel like my days are sort of a smash of hours that I'm trying to do things in, but really I'm just exhausted and taking naps a lot. I have severe anemia and I don't want a blood transfusion and iron isn't really working. I…

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• Figuring things out

  October 19, 2017

  Hmmm, so this will take some getting used to.I'm clicking around trying to find familiar things, discovering some interesting new things and hoping some of the old things come back. I like how clean things are, but I also hope to get a wyiswg... ummm. Yeah.I don't know what to write. I feel like ...

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• It’s like a comfy blanket

  October 18, 2017

  Even if it looks different and sorta smells different (yes, I have a smell-o-vision pc XD)... it's here. I'm so excited to be writing, even though I don't really know what to write about. When I logged in and saw my last few entries I burst out crying. It's like the world paused, sped up,…

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• FIND ME: chaoticdream715 on Prosebox

  January 26, 2014

  i'M FUCKING SAD.SAD AS FUCKING FUCK to see this place go.if you've lurked or read me PLEASE email me: ladychaos577@gmail.comORfind me prosebox under chaoticdream715I cannot be chaosbride there, but just in case i reserved the name and I'll leave an entry there for people to find me.I'm ... in a b...

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