I am me. I live in South West Coastal Florida. I use my diary to bitch, and to dream. I also catalogue what's going on, for future reference.
Still trying to convince myself that I'm not crazy.

I pay to be here now and you bet that I'm not walking away again without a fight.

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Unsettled

September 28, 2024
I didn't believe it when you made the call you said I love you didn't have far to fall when we met I loved you but couldn't explain what happened me to me when you spoke my name still recall when you first took my hand I let you lead didn't care where we'd land…
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Recent Entries

  • What’s the difference?
    August 28, 2024
    Many changes lately. My job title, lateral and literally exactly the same. Team of one, but in charge. It's all bullshit. I do what I do and I'm good at it. Trying to give up as little of my personal time as possible so that I can give up more of my personal time volunteering…
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  • Unsettled
    January 10, 2024
    Revisiting my past through Facebook photographs A little click a little swipe and I ran into you tonight. I see some things have changed in the tidy life you had arranged. Brought back the sad old memories or all the wrongs you did to me. You rocked my world when you mettled and you left…
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  • 2022 get the f_(# out of my house
    December 23, 2022
    Stuff I want to write about 5am version... I'm on steroids and can't sleep FUCK... Ken. I miss Ken. I think of him often and hope he is doing well. He is was one of the greatest storytellers I've ever met. Fiercely loyal to my ex husband who broke him down in private all the…
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  • Covid Sucks but its not Covid
    January 14, 2022
    How does a hospital function in this day and age without electronic documentation? Mom was in a home accident and broke her back. After staying in the hospital she was released with a handwritten medication list directing her to the pharmacy indicating a pain prescription was sent electronically....
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  • No, not Y O U…
    July 1, 2021
    Weddings. Barbecues Birthday Parties Girls night Game night Movie night Casino run Dinner Lunch Brunch The beach The bar The mall Fishing To just hang out You didn't invite me. You'll never apologize and I'll never tell you how hurt I am. When you need money, or a place to stay, someone to entert...
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  • Because I HATE hospitals…
    June 12, 2021
    Here I sit watching my mother sleep. Its comforting knowing she is safe and has no choice but to be cared for. Shitty way to get a day off though. She takes care of my grandmother. My grandmother aka "the ancient one" per my nephew is not able to live alone anymore. I think she…
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  • Number 6 always wins…
    October 5, 2020
    I had a very vivid dream while I was napping today. I had 5 escargot to hold for you inside of a paper cone made out of florist paper filled with beach pebbles. I knew you wanted this and I went through so much deliver for you. To you. Or maybe it was my idea…
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  • Broken little girl 1
    June 17, 2020
    There is a little girl who is broken. She sends me text messages because she needs someone to reach out to. She was my sons first 'girlfriend" and I hated that his heart went out because he is a hero. He is a nurturer. He saw her pain and tried to lift her spirit, but…
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  • I write when I don’t want to go to bed.
    June 17, 2020
    Im not sure what i expect to see when I check my email. I look everyday at this inbox full of crap and see that none of this mail is actually for me. Its all a hook, a dreary tale of friendless ebay receipts and sale ads and offers for vacations that I know I'll…
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