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• Scream and Purge

  November 27, 2019

  Ever got the urge to just scream?     It's crazy that I got that urge. I say "crazy' because this week hasn't been too bad for me. I know it's only Wednesday, but I haven't had these many good days in a row in...awhile...actually "awhile" doesn't even cut it, neither does "forever". Over exaggera...

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• People Shouldn’t Judge

  November 23, 2019

  It gets under my skin when people become judgmental towards a person they know nothing about. That person you're judging...you don't know there past or how their childhood was. There are reasons for everything. I share my feelings in hopes that someone can help me, give me advice, help me underst...

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• Is It All in My Head? Am I Being Gaslighted?

  November 23, 2019

     I was very apprehensive about this entry... and joining Open Diary in general, even though I'm under "Anonymously Honest". There's just something about laying it all out there for anyone and everyone to see and the possibility of getting negative reactions/responses. I guess I'm just nervous t...

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• Happy to Be Alone?

  November 22, 2019

  Good morning, I used to not be happy on Fridays because I'm usually left alone for the weekend. But lately, I've been okay with being alone. I guess I'd rather feel alone when I'm actually alone, and not feel alone when my significant other is under the same roof as me. If that makes any…

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• The Rabbit Hole Is Waiting

  November 19, 2019

  5:39 pm I'm trying my hardest to be positive right now. It baffles me how someone can change so much so fast. I question myself; has this person always been like this? Am I just now noticing it? I must have been asleep... I guess I'm finally "awake" now. I find myself on the edge…

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• The Sun Has to Come out….

  November 18, 2019

     I can wake up one morning, sit up in bed and think "Okay, it's a new day... Think positive. Be happy." Then all of a sudden I have a flashback of a memory. One memory leads pushes me down a dark painful rabbit hole. And I'm not even out of the bed yet, my…

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