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• Emotional Rollercoaster

  August 1, 2021

  Often I feel like I have this never ending emotional rollercoaster. Sense of pride from work and what I’ve done so far. Feeling lonely home with no one to talk to at night (other than some friends to talk). Missing my family who are over 1,500 miles away. Missing my dad who passed 27 year…

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• Missing Dad

  August 1, 2021

  I was merely 16 y/o when dad passed away. Although I’ve never questioned God why, there have been moments in my life were I have missed him so much. I wonder how different life could have been with him alive. I question myself if he would be proud of me. What things sarcastically would he…

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• 7 Years

  July 22, 2021

  I’ve been trying to avoid the fact that I met him 7 years ago. He was single, visiting the US but he got into a relationship and ended up marrying the “friend”. We met one hot afternoon while he was visiting and I was supposed to be off work. There have been many hookups since…

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• Permission to Happiness

  July 20, 2021

  My path has never been clear. I’ve waited for so many sign even when some have been in front of me. Failing in love has been my biggest regrets. I’ve waited for friends to give me their indirect permission to be happy and I’ve wasted my time thinking their approval would be what I need…

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• Never The One

  July 15, 2021

  I’ve often wonder why has it happened to me. Why if I’m loyal, respectful, organized, successful, with a great career and amazing personality, why was I Never The One. In my lifetime I have confessed 4 times my feelings. I was not accepted. Did I read bad the signals? or did I make them all…

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• What is Love?

  July 4, 2021

  Does one run away or towards love? I’ve watched so many series with perfect relationships that I sometimes expect the same outcome in my love life. Trying to find the perfect person, with amazing qualities, who turn out to be just a facade before meeting their true self. This is one of the reason...

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• The Life Line

  July 4, 2021

  We are born into this world like little dots roaming around trying to find another dot that would become our one and only. Once found, that other dot can eventually turn into the life line we need to keep going. Two dots that can follow the line to whatever route you both decide to take.…

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• Meltdown

  July 3, 2021

  Last night I had the drunkest meltdown in my entire life. Luckily one of my friends answered the phone and I vented to him. I felt crushed, devastated, enraged and even lonely. That was crazy. I’ve never vocalizes that feeling of loneliness. I know I have friends but it’s not the same. When I loo...

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• Love Fail

  July 2, 2021

  Life has been amazing to me. I’ve been blessed and highly favored since we I was a young kid. But in the areas of Love, I’ve failed some many times. From confession to three different guys, being rejected by them and to find out 6 years later one of them did have feelings for me…

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