I LOVE HIM DEEPLY TILL ETERNITY !

 Time has passed, two seasons have made a debut, all the pain and tears have faded and left me ..all that remains is the love inside which never faded,,,,time does heal ..its a gift from the universe for all of us. I never knew I would come to this point and feel harmony inside and have the power to go on and only keep the good things alive..from the bad things I have grown…a journey I had to make…but never wanted ,,it was necessary for my self growth and sanity…Maybe we all have our own journey and each one of us meets people, does things and goes through them until we come to the place we were meant to be in…the people we meet and things we do all have a deep meaning and purpose.

I am blessed to be me, to have lived that life I have, and met the people I have …we have to take a good look inside us and ask ourselves what is love? I have found that its the thing that is inside us all…a heart is made out of gold and all people have this heart…some just lost it somehow…I believe in people and the good they posses….I know now those who hurt me need the most of my love..because thats the thing they need…I started this diary when I was in my darkest hour in my life,,,Lost the man I loved more that life itself and wanted to grow old with…my home and my sanity….As time passed I hated,obsessed and manipulated without wanting to or knowing that I did, I wanted so desperately to have my life back…I hated the woman who took this from me and the man who gave it to her…she always wanted my life I knew this,,she had no life of her own.,..

I stopped hating and obsessing,,,went inside myself to find the real me again….it was a time of searching and digging..but here I am…

I smile every day at things others would not notice, I cry at things I see that make me happy and I have let go of the past and its bad memories..Left I have love and faith….nothing is written in stone…no one knows what the next day will bring…I will always love him,,,always miss him and the fun things we had…but the pain has faded into the place of the past….I am at peace and have faith that my dream will come true one day…maybe when I am least expecting it..love will come again…for now I will love myself and him in my heart…..