A letter to my brain

Ok this is gonna sound wacky but its not. I have lived with chronic pain almost half of my life. The pain I can say was mental and manifested into bodily pain. This I say in 100% knowingly because I researched it and found this to be true, my truth. The brain manifests your pains lived in childhood agonies, mental or not they become a real bodily pain in our realities. This is a letter to my brain my unconscious mind.

Dear Brain!

I know now the truth. The truth why I live every day with pain in my body. My hips, shoulder, back and all my other body parts. This pain is not of a physical nature but of a mental one. I know this now. I remember all the tough times I went through in my childhood all the way to this day I feel the shame and failure of my parents to show me self worth. I am NOT fat in my eyes anymore , I am not damaged and unwanted I am a good person with a mind which is so all knowing and lead me to this day. You cannot hurt me anymore I know now why you tried to shield me from the memories of my past, the words that hurt the core of who I am. I love myself now and release you, now only good things can come to me. I release the past and all its implications. My parents did not know better they did as they have be damaged this way themselves. The difference is I am wise enough to have found my truth. My gratefulness is beyond this world and gratitude to God my creator. I have searched for this all my life but only consciously the past 7 years when I started this journal. I hope and pray everyone finds their truth as I have. I only know this, there is nothing more beautiful than finding yourself in the mist of so much rubble. Thanx for reading this God Bless