09/08/2013

 I cannot seem to grasp how much time has gone by since I felt alive…felt good and blessed each and every day I live my life…Maybe the torrment of these last 2 years has a meaning to it…it has to have..otherwise I cannot explain the great things that have happened to me…I have started to study in the university to be a special educator in the social sector..helping people with drug, alcohol,child abuse and imigration …the class I attend is filled with 32 wonderful people who are so filled with happiness and love , compasion and closseness..Everyday I awake I feel so whole and know my worth and my calling in life..my purpose…I see people in the morning going to work, school and I feel so much alive in this new city…its such a beautiful place….I notice the things that make it beautiful…I have met such wonderful people this last year…I wonder at times what I have done to have all this come to me..maybe its the fact I have started to love myself…and wish myself well….I wrote a letter to Manne…about how I felt and some things I was not proud of….I guess I never expected him to answer me…its his way of  telling me I am not welcome in his life and he does not care…I wanted to be friends with him but he does not want even that,,,I guess he is happy in his new life..I really wish him well….I hope one day he finds himself and grows to see life is loving all the people in your life even those who you moved on from……