You can’t control anybody but yourself

I tried to set up something fun for my friends at work and what happens it all falls to shit. I guess the whole reason to go to karaoke was for me to tell Marco that I liked him. Then it turned I a little work party. I had it all planned out in my head what it was going to be like what I was going to wear everything. I also kind of like this guy Tony who also going This weekend Marco only says hi to me and I feel kind of ignored and I though oh no he is going to ignored when we go out because of so many people. I told Charles that he should come sing karaoke with us. Charles said they are not going to go. Then I of course go you don’t think they are going, but he didn’t say anything else. That open the flood gate I hadn’t even thought of that happening at all the not showing up. Today I ask Tony if he was for sure going and he would not chicken out at the last minute. He would not answer the question. When he finally answered he said he had to pick his parent up at the airport. I’m upset by this because he knew about picking his parents up in advance how long had he know about this? Was he ever going to tell me or just not show up? I would not have been so upset if he would have told me without me having to ask. Then I ask Marco if he is still coming and he says he does not know if he can come or not. Really you can’t tell me if you can come or not four days in advance? I think you can and you’re just to chicken to say no. I can’t believe it he was the reason we were singing karaoke and he is not going to go. Also how did Charles know they weren’t going? Were they talking about me behind my back I will never know? All I know is I still have some pride left to o1 Not ask Marco if he has made up is mind to come or not. 2 Go sing karaoke and have a blast with the girls. Can’t have them think I didn’t go because of me can we now. 3 Brag about what a great time w all had.
Later days