ug I knew it I just knew it

I had a bad feeling that if I spent more time with Marco I would just be disappointed. Boy was I right. I just knew deep down in my heart that it was not a good idea to go to a movie with him. Well 1 because he is married. 2. I would be disappointed in the end. 3 I know better then to put myself in a bad situation. Even after going threw these things in my mind I decided to go to the movie with him. Stephanie said what could go wrong? So I told myself it just a movie we are going as friends. Hating myself for secretly hoping he might kiss me or something. I know this is not going to happen and I’m just setting myself up for a huge disappointment. I don’t know why I do this to myself I know it’s not going to happen but I still hope it does and then it still sucks when it doesn’t go my way. So anyway I decided that I’m going to go and ask Marco when he wants to go see the movie despicable me. I didn’t get to ask him because he is busy and there were too many people around. So I decided maybe we could on Thursday but my Aunts decided to visit so Thursday was out. So I finally get to talk with him today and I find out he already saw despicable me with his kids. I was really disappointed and sad that he forgot about me that quickly. We had only talked about it for what a week or something. I know I’m overreacting a lot but I take this as a sign that I should not go see a movie with him.

Later days