I loss sleep for this……

Yesterday I went to diner with my best friend Stephanie. I needed some girl time to talk about the Marco issue. I just needed someone’s Opinion if I should tell m how I felt about him or not. Then dumb me got in my head that I could invite M to come to diner with us. So I toss and turn most of the night picturing what the night might go. In the back of my head I’m thinking hat he is going to say no and it going to suck. I go to work and I know that the day is going to go by so slowly. So I finally get to see him but Charles is talking to him and I don’t want to ask M in front of him. I was kind of mad that I didn’t get to talk with him. When Steph should up we went back were M was so Steph could meet him. For the record she thought he was hot. She called him sexy bad boy with tattoos. So we ask him if he wants to come eat with us but he says he cant eat because his tooth is hurting him. We were like alright then see ya. Deep down I really knew he was going to say no but it still sucks all the same. we ate dinner and decided to go to a movie. I text him that he was going to miss a movie. He said he had to much to do maybe next time denied again. As of right now I really don’t think there will be a next time guess I’m going by the tree strikes and your out. He already has two strikes on him.

Charles told me I needed to tell M how I felt that M was confused well now I’m the one confused. M told me I looked pretty and when I decide that maybe we should hang outside of work for a while he says no. I really don’t want to put myself out there again to get rejected. I think I should just become a nun and call it a day.

Later days