my abundant sadness

i think last time i wrote an update or something like it, i had a girlfriend. she was perfect. she really was. but out of the blue, she called it off. two weeks ago. i’ll admit i cried and i’ve been pretty down. things looked up after a week and i really thought she was coming back to me, but 2 days ago all hopes were shattered. it’s a shame when you really really see someone as lasting for a long term but they’re just not in it as much as you.for the sake of this update her reasons won’t be gotten into, but i think she’s afraid of someone being so into her. it makes her vulnerable. anyway, aside from that, i’ve also had a broken leg for the passed 7 weeks. that’s been a drag too. and since you want to know, i was drunk in a mosh pit. that’s how it happened. and summer is around the corner. i work at a school which means money will be at a low as well. i’m waiting for things to pick up. all news has been so bad lately. i’m too bummed to even write. and writing is just what i do when i’m sad. hopefully my next entry is soon and a little bit more joyous. thanks for listening.