A Drowning of Heart and Mind

My heart is a furnace ablaze
with a memory
of you. Sadness boils
within, flames melt my soul.
For our lost love I cry and
steam cooks my eyes like grapes.
Out on the horizon, a dying sun
for my dying mind culminates the day.
 
To quell these violent flames
I plead the sea.
The rush and sigh of ebbing tides
a lulling ghostly lullaby
beckoning: “Let me be
your grand release…” I stand
hypnotized.
 
I give in.
 
The black waters hold me
captive. The moon fades from
beyond the surface as I am
dragged further by the undertow.
Shiver and sink.
Shiver and sink.
Bleak depths await.
 
Darkness darkens, the look of light
forgotten. But pain! Too vivid.
I remember us. Weightless
yet so burdened by these thoughts
of you. The dividing line of soul
and mind realized within patterns
of a throbbing heart.
Lose your fear, your pain
with just one breath
…gasp
…gulp
 
Naked and dirty, bloated
and rotting, a body vomited back
onto the very shores of refreshment
sought, dead to a past so beloved,
to a future once sought after.
Love kills.
Love killed.