Screw Disability

If I’m being completely honest, I hate my life, and myself right now. See, I have Cerebral Palsy, and while I’m not nearly as bad as some others who have the same disability, I do have my limitations. One of the biggest is not being able to go anywhere whenever i damn well please.  And it’s becoming an issue. A BIG issue, as it turns out.

So I’ve been having nightmares about my stepfather and  I having huge fights about various issues, and this morning one of the nightmares came true, and it was a big, nasty fight. I no longer feel wanted here in my own house, and like I am more of a burden than anything else. I’m working on getting some services, but it’s taking some time.

I’m feeling sick to my stomach right now. As if I don’t have enough problems. I don’t want to feel this way anymore, and I hate it.  -sigh-