Hmm. Old habits – you are my greatest nemesis.
So I done fucked up, it seems.
1 – Got my prescription (good thing)
* Abused it, and as a result, stayed awake (as of right now) 53 hours consecutively
* Became familiarly horny and gave head to a bunch of random guys off of craigslist.
* As a result of said Head-a-thon, my lips and tongue are painfully raw
2 – Bought a pack of cigarettes (bad thing)
* After taking said medication, fixation becomes the norm, making it that much harder to distract myself from cigarettes.
Anyway. I got a good job from my boss this morning before I left work. It made me feel good. I managed to plug me getting my "certification" yet again, and feel that I am now coming across as more overbearing than ambitious. Eh, who knows.
Fuck that job anyway – I have an interview today at 3pm for an actual, in-the-flesh JOB (as opposed to all this temp bullshit I keep getting) that pays more.
Here’s hoping I get the job and don’t spiral out of control.
3 months sober.
It would seem at this point I have more important shit to worry about than not drinking.
53 hour head-a-thon huh. Damn…just DAMN.
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Heh, with my smoking it’s an oral thing. I like having something in my mouth. Which sounds odd, or dirty. But yeah, I’m trying to quit, and I just keep fixating on my mouth. I can’t over-eat, because my stomache just doesn’t hold that much. So, cigs it is. Only problem: They kill. Gotta work on that part.
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