Hmm. Old habits – you are my greatest nemesis.

So I done fucked up, it seems.

1 – Got my prescription (good thing)
          * Abused it, and as a result, stayed awake (as of right now) 53 hours consecutively
          * Became familiarly horny and gave head to a bunch of random guys off of craigslist.
          * As a result of said Head-a-thon, my lips and tongue are painfully raw
2 – Bought a pack of cigarettes (bad thing)
          * After taking said medication, fixation becomes the norm, making it that much harder to distract myself from cigarettes.

Anyway.  I got a good job from my boss this morning before I left work.  It made me feel good.  I managed to plug me getting my "certification" yet again, and feel that I am now coming across as more overbearing than ambitious.  Eh, who knows.

Fuck that job anyway – I have an interview today at 3pm for an actual, in-the-flesh JOB (as opposed to all this temp bullshit I keep getting) that pays more.

Here’s hoping I get the job and don’t spiral out of control.

 

3 months sober.
It would seem at this point I have more important shit to worry about than not drinking.

 

 

 

 

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April 2, 2010

53 hour head-a-thon huh. Damn…just DAMN.

April 3, 2010

Heh, with my smoking it’s an oral thing. I like having something in my mouth. Which sounds odd, or dirty. But yeah, I’m trying to quit, and I just keep fixating on my mouth. I can’t over-eat, because my stomache just doesn’t hold that much. So, cigs it is. Only problem: They kill. Gotta work on that part.