1/3 is actually kinda bad.

so….. I failed 2 of my 3 college classes.
one was by a lot and the other was by like, literally 1 percent.

anyway, what I did today. I woke up early (5a) got breakfast, hung out with grant and anita and worked and helped them. I got some cool stuff that I can use to decorate my room. Started trying to eat a little bit healthier, but I just rebounded something fierce on redbull just now. *shrug*

The meeting today was actually pretty good. I heard a lot of cool things in it about the 12 principles that dictate AA’s 12 steps. It was actually pretty good.

I dunno. i guess I just realized how little progress I’ve actually made today – I mean, I have been turning things in on time, and I’ve been more proactive about school stuff than I have ever been in my entire life, and that’s nothing to sneeze at…. It’s just that I’m not exactly showing up for my classes in the capacity that I know I can. I… dunno – I’m just sending a vibe out to the universe and asking it to help me, I guess.

Went out to ‘coffee’ with the sponsor and some people. It wasn’t just coffee. It was also dinner… meh.

Tomorrow, though, I think I get Grant all to myself while we work on motorcycle stuff. That should be good – I need something to get my mind off of things. I really can’t believe that I actually have the balls to take a machine like that apart! I’m surprising myself all the time nowadays. I removed everything necessary to in order to get to the carburetor, and I fucking eviscerated the shit out of the motorcycle. I’m really excited. Hopefully I get it working tomorrow.

um…. Also, my relationship with Trooper is improving. I look to him constantly for advice, and he provides rather consistently. It’s really nice to look at him, and get a pretty damn good reality check on what really matters. WE MATTER. things don’t matter. we do.

Kevin is coming in about a fucking week what the fuck shit? I asked Greg if I Could borrow his car so I could show kevin around and he said yes. The only thing about that is that I am now starting to become financially a bit more precarious or whatever. I think that I am going to borrow some money from my sponsor and work for grant more so that I am not so utterly fucked – I mean, I can’t even afford to buy my schoolbooks, yo.

anyway….. outside of that… sobriety is good. I’m lucky. I am really lucky. and I’m going to start watching zombie movies now.

All in all, my life is still pretty fucking awesome. and I say that without the slightest hesitation.

J-