knickerboker lane.
Is dissapointment always the same shade of grey?
or does is show is another shade, anyway?
maybe a blue?
or some other hue?
I dont know..
dont know what to do.
K.
well, this weekend I excitedly told my best friend, what my plans for my immdiate future were, and she, didnt react in any way I had hoped for her to. it was really dissapointing.
so dissapointing.
Shes so different now, from what happened and all. I dont blame myself because I dont want that kind of guilt on me, and I dont know if I even care… oh I cant say that. I do care. But I guess Im doing waht I do when something unpleasant happens. I just look once and cover it over with a blanket in my mind.
I cant even pretend that I want to say Im sorry. It really wasnt my fault..stoopid mistakes of yore.
so what else.
what can I do. I have to move forward.
For better or worse.
dam.
I hate myself for this.
I wish I could leave. But,.. the timing.. its not soo good.
not yet.
why is it im always biding for time.
always jsut having to wait a little longer.
dam you devil of fate.
for better or for worse.
I know what I want,..
so IM going for it.
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disclamier: not to be commented on. just a rant.
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-H.
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good luck
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