Struggling

It’s just getting worse.  I’m trying so hard to keep smiling, to keep up the pretence for my friends but I’m wilting.

I’ve made two massive, basic mistakes at work.  Luckily, I was doing the checks, so managed to correct them so noone else knows, but I’m so cross with myself.

It’s all just too much.  Everything today reminded me of horrible parts of my past and I couldn’t deal with it. 

My Mum’s still really down too, and I just want her to be happy.

I don’t know what to do any more.