Disgusted

I am well and truly disgusted with myself.  I’ve slept with a married man.  Not just a married man, but one who is expecting a child.  I could forgive myself if it was just once, but it was twice.  I really hate myself.

I like him so much. 

How come every single time I have sex, I believe that I will not fall for the guy, that I can detach myself from it…  I can’t.

Why am I so pathetic?  Why can’t I control myself?  What is wrong with me?  

I should just say no to sex.  I should know I can’t keep sex seperate from love/really liking a guy.

Why can’t I just be able to look out for myself?  Why can’t I stop myself getting hurt? 

I’m sick of it all.

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Yeah… I can’t even imagine. Poor lady. poor baby.

July 23, 2010

I feel sorry for the woman who will have to tell her kid why she left its father.

July 23, 2010

Don’t be too hard on yourself, everyone makes mistakes. He should be the one taking most of the blame afterall he’s the one that’s married.

July 23, 2010

It takes 2 to tango hugs xxx

July 23, 2010

I agree with your other noters: it takes two to tango and everyone is allowed to make mistakes.

July 25, 2010

We all make mistakes, there’s nothing wrong with you. x

July 26, 2010

Yes, it’s rubbish. But you weren’t the only one there that night. He has as much part to blame in this xx

What are you doing later 🙂