Kurtys Miller

I am in the army reserves which causes me to travel to differnt places each year. Well this year my unit went to Camp Lejune in North or South Carolina ( I cant remember) I was not looking foward to going because it was the middle of July and I knew it would be hot as Hell in Carolina and we had to sleep outside the middle of nowhere for two weeks without showers, no hot food, sweaty, hot, humid, bug infested, snake infested and spider infested forest . I hate annual training! But this year I met this guy named Kurtys Miller. Unexpectly! I wasnt even looking for anyone. Actually, I had met Kurtys about two years earlier on another military trip to Minosota. He took me out, we ate. Then we went back to my hotel room and slept, he was a perfect gentlemen he did not try anything once. We had training early the next morning so he got up and went to his hotel room. We exchanged numbers. But for some crazy reason I wasnt that interested in him and I never called. Fast forward two years later at Camp Lejune. I saw him again. At first I didnt recognize him but he recognized me. I instantly feel in love.  didnt understand why I didnt keep in touch with him the first time. We talked all night until it was time for us to go to training. We were in different companies and we had to split for a while. During that time ALL I could think about was Kurtys. Finally it was time for us to leave so we left the forest and came to the barracks. I was so happy because I saw Kurtys again. We talked and talked until we got on the plane back to Chicago. I gave him my number. I was so excited, I knew he would call. That was in August of 2005. Its been five months. I haven’t heard from him since. and I still think about him everyday.

That’s kinda how love and relationships go for me. I never can find the right one. And as soon as I think I found someone   I can see myself being with, it doesnt work out. It feels like Im cursed. How do I end this curse.