Suicide Is Painless

First he was missing, then he was found, but too late with the newly purchased dryer hose running from his tail pipe to the cab of the pickup.

He was the husband of sister/mom’s friend.  He was the human grandpa to my doxie.  My doxie has lost his bio dad, a bio uncle and 2 human grandpa’s.

He was talking about the future and next year and things seemed ok.  No one ever know what someone is thinking.  He wasn’t fighting with his wife.

He did leave a letter, but the police won’t release it to her til Tue or Wed… that seems cruel and I’m glad I’m not his wife because I’d be all over that.  Give her a photo copy or something, damn.

I have a huge crush on his wife’s son, but I can’t tell him.  I wish he knew.  But, alas, I’m still trying to fix this ridiculous marriage.

I was on the road driving with hubby for the past month.  We broke up a few time and finally realized we can’t be together 24/7 and he’ll never accept that I have to help sister/mom pay bills.  So I’m going to get my own truck and we’ll quit fighting over money.

I really love him, but I can’t stand to be around him too long.  He’s not as smart as me and lacks some basic manners.  He’s not very nice and doesn’t seem to trust me anymore.  I’m losing the patience to deal with him.

Also on Christmas Day, Jeremy’s maternal grandfather died.  93 years old.

The suicide guy, John, was missing since Friday after noon and found Christmas day afternoon.  To kill yourself around Christmas is really cruel too.

Wishing you Peace and Resolution,

Yaechle