He’s Destroying His Marriage

Letter to sistermom:

Well, Saturday night I told Bill about jewelry pawns.  Yep, he was outrageously pissed.  I dunno why it’s such a big deal, but he made it one.  Acted like an ass and we quietly argued about it nicely since William was in the room, then he went to bed and he let go about money again.  About money to you again… DON"T FEEL BAD!  Just venting, it’s not about you.  I told him the reason we were in this jam was all his fault and job hopping because he asked how much money I contributed.  DUH… 1200 a month for over a year more than I can make at $8/hr.  I told him AGAIN about me taking him on w/his 4 kids and $1300/mo.  Same old stale ass stanky fuckin bullshit from nearly 5 years ago.  Then he was talking about me leaving and I asked him where that came from.  He said I had planned on leaving since December and January and I told him that was crap and finally we just quit talking.  He was a grouchy bitch all day Sunday with me and the boys.  Fucking annoying.  I told him he better learn to prioritize important shit because if we don’t work together right now, we will fail.  Still a grouch ass.  When I went to bed I told him he better be better tomorrow because I was sick of the shit.  Same ol same ol.  He took boys home and stopped by his mom’s.  He called to tell me and I said, "Good, you can tell her what a terrible wife I am."  He had asked me earlier what was for dinner to feed the boys before they went home.  I told him I spent an hour making an awesome breakfast that no one appreciated (crepes stuffed with cream cheese and topped with mixed berries… they didn’t know what crepes were), so dinner was on him.  I hadn’t cleaned out the cabinets from crap food yet, so he made box tatos and mac n chz w/frozen turkey entree.  Then he makes Trenton eat food and bitches at him for a half hour.  I hate those food arguments.  It sucked when our parents did it and I refuse to make a kid eat something.  Just give them something else.  I told him my check will be ate up with the lawyer, the rent and you.  I told him I don’t sent you nearly as much money as he thinks.  I told him I have been doing it since I was married to someone else and he knew/knows it.  He says it’s not fair for me to compare it to his child support because "he can’t help it".  He takes responsibility for nothing.  He quit his job, the "landlord/job boss/brother-in-law", Tim, kicked us out of our house and life is SCARY.  We don’t need infighting.  Things are going to be worse before better.  We don’t need this petty crap.  I told him I pawned his ring a year ago and he hasn’t missed it, so what’s the big deal.  It was for gas money to move here and he had to borrow money from Tim, so what’s better or worse.  I told him my jewelry was pawned in December when his checks got cut.  He said "I’ll never buy you another ring."  Go fuck yourself asshole, I didn’t pawn just "your rings".  I pawned things I’ve had since before I met him.  When I went w/him to meet disability lawyer it came out that he was in special ed for a year.  I know he was held back 2 grades over time to and was 16 in the 9th grade so he quit.  And I’m me… that’s not even close to a match.  I know this letter will heat your ears up, just keeping you posted.  He’s bein a fucking idiot and I’m packing in my head again.  We’ll see how it goes.