My Own Damn Fault
I’m the one who broke off the engagement, I’m the one who decided that we weren’t right for each other and I’m the one that broke her heart. Now 5 months later I find out she’s very happy with a guy in a new relationship and now it seems I’m the one with a broken heart, at least it feels that way and I wish like hell it didn’t. I don’t want to miss her, I don’t want to have feelings for her, but I do and I fear they won’t ever go away.
I have tried repeatedly to be friends with her, because it just doesn’t make any sense to me to know someone intimately for 3 years and then suddenly one day stop talking forvever. I hear about this new guy and it makes me insanely jealous, not that I want to feel this way, but I do and I don’t know what to do about it, she’s obviously moved on and I haven’t, yet I was the one to end it… I feel like such a jackass, I brought this all on myself. Now I must deal with the painful aftermath by myself…
Would you feel the same if she was doing miserably & was whoring around, totally unhappy & you were doing awesome? Or if you were just busy out of your mind & happy with whatever reason you broke up with her for? Just curious. Actually I’m not, cause I don’t know you, but, an outside eye can’t hurt.
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you ended it for a reason. you made the right decision so stop kicking your ass over it. maybe she’s not totally happy with new dude. maybe that’s just a front. you’re young buttercup. you have sooooo much living to do before you settle down. trust me on this one. k? k. 🙂
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Ok, I didn’t mean for that to sound rude, like I think it did. I was just meaning that, you broke up with her for a reason, you broke off your ENGAGEMENT for a reason, if there are any doubts period, that is grounds enough for breaking it off, & the fact that she’s with someone 5 months later, hey I’m not knocking her but apparently she’s alright with it, so don’t beat yourself up.
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You may need to seriously think about what motivates your feelings for someone. sometimes a young person doesn’t know themselves well enough to be engaged to anyone – that is probably what gave you doubts in the first place – your age and a general sense of uncertainty If now that she’s with someone else you are jealous it tells me that you want her because someone else does – not because of love
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