3/4/07
Well, I think I’m gonna try and write in this diary a little more often. I practically quit writing in this for quite a while but I dunno, right now it seems like it’s kind of relaxing to me to just write about my day and random thoughts. I use myspace quite often, generally everyday even, I also tend to use Facebook pretty often as well, but I’ve had this diary for years now so I guess I should put a little more of my time into it. Ha, I wonder if this site stays up for long enough for me to still be writing in it 10 years from now… That would be interesting wouldn’t it…
I dunno, it seems like right now my life is best compared to a single marble in a glass jar being shaken very violently and with every smack against the glass causes me a new headache. It sucks really, it does but I gotta think positively and keep an openmind about things. I gotta stay on my toes and keep my motivation as high as possible, I can’t allow things to bring me down. God is just testing me that is all, I need to realize this 100% and show some perseverance.
I mean I have AIT coming up in a matter of weeks and I still have much to do, a whole lot to do and it seems to be stressing me out quite a bit. I just broke up with my g/f/Fiance of 3 years like two weeks ago and that has stressed me out especially with her being a super bitch about everything. Work sucks, only get 24 hours a week and it’s during third shift, I don’t know how many of you out there have worked a third shift job but after 7 months of it it gets really hard to bare. I got bills coming out of the wood work, I’m just lucky have AIT coming up because i should be getting about $2800 from that and plus another $650 or so from my tax return… but even still, bills are always stressful for anyone. I’ve been having constant headaches for like 2 months now ever since my concussion I got at work while loading one of my trucks. However I don’t think the last few weeks have been a result of that, they are now mostly synus headaches and they suck ass.
I don’t know, maybe I am whining too much and I should look at all the pros rather then cons of my life. I have numerous things to be thankful for and i guess I really do take things for granted. But I think that is easy for anybody to do in this day and age when so many nice things are so easy to obtain, you easily take those nice things for granted, it’s the real nice things that you have to work super hard for that you truly appreciate more. But really we should appreciate everything we have, everything… I do know I’d rather not be homeless or starved right about now, so…
Well I guess I am gonna end this entry and maybe go take a nap in hopes of calming my headache down sense meds aren’t really doing the job for me.
Later,
Goo