I’m Alive!!!

Sorry I haven’t been around, lovelies.

I found an online chatroom that I’ve been frequently a LOT over the past two months or so. I spend all my free time in this chatroom with some of the most amazing people I’ve ever met in my life. I’ve neglected a lot of other things, but honestly, I’m just enjoying the friendships I’ve made. These are some of the best friends I’ve ever had in my life.

Few updates:

Work: I’ve been working the CSL position at Staples and I’ve done a fantastic job. I’ve boosted the numbers insanely. I’ve taken us from an overall 35th place in the district in sales, customer service, rewards, etc. to 7th place. I’ve made it a better working environment, implemented ideas that have helped the company.
Needless to say, I’m thriving. Everyone is loving the change of pace and everything. I’ve been working a LOT of hours. I’m working 47 hours this week. It’s exhausting. I basically go to work, come home and chat in my chatroom for 2-3 hours and go right back to bed. I’m been so dead! 

Medical: Over the past two months I’ve been having severe lower abdominal pain. I’ve tried to write it off like it was gas or something along those things; but it’s steadily gotten worse and worse. It only flares up every so often, but it’s bad enough to cripple me. I cried the first time. It was horrible. Well, last night around 1am, it centralized internally in my cervix. It was mind-blowing, stabbing, sharp pain. Adam finally decided we needed to go to the ER. So we went, it was awful. Hahaha. They did 8 blood tests, a urine test, 2 pelvic exams and an ultrasound.
I’ve never actually had pelvic exam or anything of that sort. I’ve never been to an obgyn or anything so I was sooo fucking nervous. They did the exam, they were totally fucking awesome about it even though I was so fucking nervous and kinda freaking out.
The ultrasound was entirely awkward. They stuck a probe up my vagina. Blah blah blah. 

They found that my white blood cell count is too high and that I have what looks like endometriosis. For anyone who doesn’t know what that is, it’s basically when cells and scar tissue build up in the uterus and ovaries where it shouldn’t belong. There’s no real cure, though certain birth controls can somewhat control the buildup of scar tissue but it’s something I’ll live with for the rest of my life. If it’s severe enough, I can become infertile and have to have a hysterectomy. That would ruin my life. It’s scaring the shit out of me. 

Right now I’m on percocet for the pain, it’s insane. I took 3 of them this evening and I was high as shit. I was on mic in my chatroom (they’ve all heard me when I’m drunk) and they were like "Whooaaaa…. Emma is FUCKED UP!" Haha. It was hilarious. 

Other than that, nothing much is going on. I’ve kinda given up on facebook. It doesn’t seem appealing to me anymore. 

Oh, I’m getting a new laptop in March! YAY!!!!! 

I hope everyone is doing okay. I WILL do my best to read, note and update more often but I can’t make promises at this point in time. Life is going by so fast and I get so preoccupied.

I love you guys!