Lonely to the bone

Well another day and more and more I feel really lonely. Is it because for many years my husband and I were always together. Maybe. Maybe I am not use to the fact of being by myself again. I spent 19 years alone, being that I am an only child. It was difficult for me to have someone around all the time. Yet after 8 years of being with someone 24/7, I now hate the silence and being alone. How do I get back to who I was before my marriage? How do I get back the parts of me I lost? These are my life questions, the ones I most certainly am trying to figure out.

Its hard to feel certain about anything right now. I moved to PEI a few months ago for work. I left my friends and family. Shortly after moving, I found out about my ex and his gf. I asked him to leave, and now my world is upside down. I wish I could say I have a goal or a dream in mind. I don’t though, I don’t even know what I want. I find that I feel really lost because I don’t have any structure in my life. I don’t have a goal to work towards, I just am living day by day not knowing what the next will bring. I have decided to cut out all drama in my life or at least as much as I can. I just would really like to have a plan…I know that sounds weird, but if I could organize it in my mind, I could work through it easier……