11/9/07

Well I met someone very interesting yesterday and had an amazing chat today. Someone that made me realize how good I have it. He has had nothing but negatives and he still manages to find the positives in life and keeps at it. He made me look at my life and I realized I have so much right here. I have great friends who would help me if I only asked them too. My parents are still alive, and I am close with them . I am still healthy and kicking, I have no health problems. I have a great job I love and clients I love even more. And the horrible stuff that happened in my life were when I was a kid and I don’t remember it anyways…Well most of it. Sure it f*cked me up for life, but it could have been worse…I am greatful for what I have right now. I have a guy that still loves me and wants to give our old relationship a try again. I have an ex hubby that regrets his crap and wants to come home. And I have a freak of a sex addict that wants to screw me when I go home for the summer. What else could a girl ask for? …lol..

Oh and I realized that friend I am totally in love with…I realized he will never ever make up his mind over what he wants….So I am moving on…..He missed out on another chance again….Silly fool….I will admit I did push him a lot, but its only because he never expressed how he really felt and he did the Gemini thing and would act all cold to me….So sorry, but I am going to move on now…Too bad…I would of had your babies….*smile*