Youtube help

 I was watching a youtube video of a guy talking about his life with avoidant personality disorder.  He opened my eyes to some good things about this condition/disorder/whatever.  Going forward, I’m going to try to see these good things and focus on them instead of the fact that I will never have a normal relationship with a person.  But even now, I’m having trouble focusing on the positives, so this is going to be hard.

On another note..I’m trying hard right now to forgive someone without getting the apology that I want.  I want to forgive for myself, but I’m also finding this to be difficult.  

If you happen to be reading this, please, please, please send me some good vibes…I really need some help.