Sleepy

I’ve been home since about 9:00 this morning. I got off an hour late and I have yet to sleep for longer than 30 minutues. I’m just so tired these days. My body is worn out. Emotionally and physically. I don’t think it’s normal for one to go this long.

I had a break down this morning in front of our mailbloxes lol. I was just so tired and emotional and it just go to me. It being EVERYTHING. I broke down and told Kasi how I felt about her going to Florida and not working for over a week. I told her that it hurt me so bad that she made such a selfish decision because I am paying all the bills this month when she could have been here working to pay her part and it’s not fair that I’ve busted my ass and I’m not even going to be able to treat myself to something nice. It’s just not fair.

I went to go get us something to eat this morning around 10. I ended up at the park and was just starring at the water. I called my dad. Lately I’ve been wondering what he would think if I had a baby with a female and he basically answered that question today. He basically told me that he doesn’t believe that homosexual relationships last because we are all too promisicus. I started wondering if he was true. I have yet to meet more than 5 couples that have stayed together londer than 5 years and are still going strong.

I don’t want to go through all this bullshit my whole life. I’ll end up killing myself from too much stress. I’ve already ended up in the hospital twice.

I have an appointment tomorrow to finish an interview I had like a month ago for Data Entry. Although I do love my job it would be wonderful to have *normal* hours. I get nothing done during the day! because I end up sleeping. I would like to actually do things with my life. I can’t wait till I can take mini trips on my weekends and not have to worrk about when i’m going to get to the laundry or clean my house. Ugh…it’s all just a little too crazy for me.

Well I’m done whining lol. I’m going to go put together my new phone that my warranty finally sent me! yay! maybe I’ll finally be able to hear on my phone ;o)

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