..Sigh..

So…she left.

Kasi has left for her trip to Florida. It’s weird. I don’t know if I’m more aggrivated or upset. I’m sitting here and I’m so bored. For the past year and a half I have surrounded my life around her and now I don’t have anything to do. Mostly everyone in my phone is my family, a few ex g/f’s that I still remain friends with…and work numbers. Boy am I lame.

Some people may not understand why I am aggrivated that she left…but I will always feel like I am just in my feelings.

I have worked my ASS off for the past 2 years just to be here. Just to live here and be here with her. I have worked my ass off to provide for us and be everything that she needs and make sure she HAS everything that she needs and wants and just because someone asks, she drops everything and runs off. I just don’t think it’s fair. I haven’t been home to see my family in a year. I haven’t been able to do anything for myself. The past like 2 months I have not only payed her bills, but an overdraft fee that added up to 70 dollars. I love my g/f, I do. I just don’t think she sees how much I do and sacrifice for her.

I have given everything for her just so we could be here together, and she goes off the first chance she gets. I just don’t think it’s fair. I’ve been making plans for us to go to Cali for my brothers wedding and…ugh I don’t know. Jesus…I’m a baby. I don’t want to feel like I’m asking for too much. I just want to feel like she appreciates me and everything I do. I do all the cleaning and cooking and laundry and everything. I work about 60 or more hours a freakin week. I give to her before I give to myself. Am I really asking for too much??? *hmph*

I guess I’m pissed too because Kasi took off all this time off of work just to go to Florida when she doesn’t even have the money? How do you go 3 states away with no money? I wasnt gonna give her the money!

Okie..I’m going throwing myself a pity party. I’m gonna take a shower and get on my way. I guess it’s just Darrilyn and I tonight lol. Back to work I go.

**Lease**