Lost Faith?

I guess I never got around to saying.. I (sort of) made up with Faith early last week.

I went to the hotel while she was working to give her back the season passes we bought for Six Flags. When I walked in, she told me she was sorry for how cruel she had been online to me, and I told her I was sorry for making such a huge deal of something so silly. We talked for about fifteen minutes, sort of catching up on things.

But since then.. we haven’t talked, not even online. Well, I asked her what was wrong once, because her diary was talking about how upset and sad she was.. but she didn’t want to talk to me about it at all… that hurt a bit.

And I read her diary and see how much fun she’s having with Amanda all the time.. they go to the speedbowl.. they have parties together… Now Faith, her mom and Amanda are getting a house together…

Faith and I used to talk about living together in the future… and it really… makes me sad to see her forget about me now that Amanda is back.

Amanda and Faith knew each other when they were younger, then Amanda moved away for five or so years, I guess… Faith and I became best friends…. once Amanda came back, I suddenly had to compete for Faith’s attention…

Guess I know who won…

And I wonder if it would have been the same between Faith and I if Amanda had never come back.