Impressive?

Today I should be ashamed of myself. I woke up at noon! And haven’t really done anything productive. I’ve only just got dressed. I’ve had a day of thinking that my life doesn’t seem inpressive. I haven’t done anything impressive, been anywhere impressive and I have nothing impressive to look forward to. I’ve always blamed it on money, the people I compare my life to all have money. There must be some way to have an interesting life without having money.

I’d like an interesting job. Today my list consisted of looking fo a new career path. I have taken a liking to becoming a makeup artist which is interesting and makeup/art is something I am interested in. There is the money issue and how the hell I get started off. I’m also embarrassed to tell me Mum about this as she always insists I should get a normal 9-5 job in an office. I’m concerned that I would get too bored in this kinda job. I can understand why she wants me to have a job like this because I wouldn’t be as stressed as I am in my job right now, I wouldn’t have to work weekends, or if some, not every weekend and an office job seems to scream out stability. I wouldn’t have all the responsibilities I have right now. Being a store manager, sorry Assistant manager is a tough job and I’m not a tough cookie, even though I and many others regard myself as being hardworking and dedicated, sometimes I find I am just too fragile for my job. I don’t think I have what it takes to be management material, which is a shame because I have spent the last 5 years in management always having a goal to work my way up the ladder. After having stepped down from store manager I have come to the conclusion that this isn’t the job for me and my heart is longer in it. I’m panicking that I have wasted so many valuable years.

I just keep thinking that whilst I don’t have any children of my own/ or that rely on me wholely and whilst our house is struggling to sell, I should try and do something with this valuable time, as at the age of 26 I don’t have much time left.