Robert’s sick and I get to write AGAIN?!
11:03pm
Wow. I’ve been browsing the internet for a couple of hours now!! (you know, quick porno site, FB, My Space, and now, OD!) Hey! a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s… you know!! Robert has been sick with a fever for a few days and so I took him to see Dr. Coleman today. She found he has an ear infection in his left ear and wants him on an antibiotic. (Keflex BID x 1 week) He’s been sleeping since 9pm or earlier and now I hear him waking (now that I’m about to journal!!) Ha!
So, I’ve been off work for the longest I’ve been off work since maternity leave! I haven’t worked since my 2 hours on Tuesday and then days before that. So over a week and no work, really! Tomorrow’s my last day off. Then I have to work on Thurday and Friday, off on Sat, and back on Sunday. It seems that Children’s Hospital is going to be taking over my unit and I’m going tohave to reapply for my job!! That really isn’t making me very happy. What’s going to happen?! Will I like working for children’s or will I wish I had just taken a position with my hospital where I am employed now?! I just don’t know the answer. I want to believe things will be similar if I work for CH. I am praying not to have to learn a whole new type of patient. I’m pretty darn comfortable with the acquity of the patients I deal with now.
So, I just emailed Mychael a bit on My Space. Although he still intrigues me, his lifestyle of art and homelessness is not one I think I would have enjoyed!!
THEN I found out that Dion is in prison till next Xmas (this year?? don’t know) His sister is the one who responded to my email to Dion from LONG ago!
THEN I have an email from DaleAnne who was Craig’s X. I wanted to tell her of his suicide a long time ago, but now, I don’t even want to dredge up the pain of it all (and start it fresh for someone else? I don’t think so) So I think I’ll just ignore her email to me and let it go. (she responded well after I wrote her) And now… it’s 6.5 years later!! (after death) So sad, but no need to dredge up the horror of it all again.
Things I may have forgotten to journal about Robert:
He named breastfeeding "Nuntz" and will ask me to nurse by saying he’s "sweepy" (sleepy) and wants to go "Ny Nite" and then I’ll lie him down, nurse him, and he will inevitably pop back up out of bed and walk back out to go play!! He tricks me!! Cuz I want to cut off the nursing during the day soon. Now that he’s sick I’ll postpone AGAIN.
Robert says, "Grandma" now and finds a pic of my Little Grim or of Roy’s Grandma and he’ll say Gramma or GG!! I wish GG were alive to hear him say her name!!
Last night at 0330 he came in my room with a 101.7 fever, and was talkatkive as heck!! He said, "Mama, Dada, Dyna (Dylan) HOME! Dada Sweepy!" So cute!! I actually recorded our voices last night as I read him the book, where the wild things are! He likes to repeat things I say and then say, "Mon-er" (monster)
Well, I actually don’t feel like doing a heck of a lot of writing now. I just feel like trying to read or play a game. But I can still hear Robert rocking to sleep…
More later!