Robert gets some nectarine and I work tomorrow!!

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10:17pm

I know, I know, I should be sleeping right now, but I really wanted one last blog before returning to the work force.  I got a lot done today, well, in preparation for going back to work that is. I wonder how I’ll prepare tomorrow night with no time!!  I hope the tuna salad I prepared for Roy will last for two meals (it should!)

I was crying by 5am this morning.  I was probably cranky at Roy, too, seeing as he wasn’t comforting me the way I wanted him to.  But I appologized and explained that my emotions are just way too distraught with the thought of leaving the baby to go back to work.  14 hours is a long time to be away from little Robert.  And then I have to do it Tuesday as well.  (hopefully the baby will be with Ginger at that point) 

Instead of crying all day, I tried to keep my mood positive as to not sour my breastmilk!!  I also didn’t want to ruin the time that I DO have with my baby, by spending it being depressed.  And finally, I did not want my depression to affect Robert’s good mood.  So, I only cried in the morning, and just welled up a tad in the afternoon.  Tonight has been pretty good.

This afternoon I took Robert outside to see the garden that Roy has been working on.  Then I took Robert out of his Jeep stroller and danced with him to some Skatallites that we were listening to!  Roy was painting some wood panels that he is turning into the bottom of a trailer.  So I turned so Robert was over my shoulder and could watch Roy paint.  He really was fascinated watching the white paint spread over the wood panels!  And with the Skatallites playing in the backround, it was an all around better experience for Robert than his Baby Einstein video!!  Cuz he got bounced with our dancing, and saw his dad doing the painting with groovy music on in the background and he got to watch the white paint spread smoothly across the wood.  He  really enjoyed it.  We stayed outside a long time bouncing to the music and walking around. 

Then this evening I thought he’d sleep for a while, but instead it was as if he were re-engergized and he managed to kick his way thru me preparing dinner and then while we ate dinner!  After all that kicking he was a bit hungry, so I nursed him and he is now sleeping on my bed. 

For SOME reason his poo is green.  It’s been that way for quite a few days now, and I’m a bit concerned cuz it’s 7 days after his rotovirus oral immunization.  I asked if it were alive or dead vaccine and the nurse couldn’t answer me.  I read the form and I still don’t know.  I’ll find out tomorrow.  Otherwise he seems ok.  Aside from periodic arches of the back, with a red face and crying out.  It’s as if he’s having stomach cramping, and then later he has the green poo.  Could it be from the gripe water that he’s gotten one dose of recently?!  I would doubt that it would affect so many poops afterward.  He seems to be without fever and his appetite is good.  He’s not vomitting.  So why the green poo kid?

Ohhh…  (green poo aside)  Robert got to try his first food today.  I let him lick and then have bits of a nectarine.  It was perfectly ripe, juicy and sweet.  He made such a face when he got some in his mouth, but he really enjoyed it and kicked up a storm while we let him lick the nectarine!!  Roy was there and gave it to him first to lick.  I then broke off a tiny bit and put it on the tip of my thumb.  He took my thumb in his mouth and sucked on it!!  I swear, I think he even pulled my hand to his mouth with his hands.  he’s really using his hands so much more now.  He’s the CUTEST THING EVER!!  He takes all things snuggly (stuffed rattle, blanket, clothing, stuffed animals) and hugs them hard to his chest then tries to bring them to his mouth using both hands.  I just love to watch him explore and grow. 

I just have to continue to thank G-d that I will get to have 4 days a week to be with Robert.  and in the meantime I may keep looking for work around here. 

Well, wish me luck sleeping tonight.  I hope I sleep enough to stay awake all day at work tomorrow.  If I could work 9 months pregnant, then I should be able to get thru tomorrow.  *sigh*  I wish I could be a stay at home mom!!