Journey back

Dear diary

I read through the book "Touchpoints for students" that night when receive it as a christmas gift from my cousin, I manage to read almost the whole book in one night.  I must admit it was quite useful for me, as it answers some of my queries about God, and it made me understand God better, I also learn alot of interpretations about the bible from the book.

Though I already accepted Christ into my heart but sometimes it’s just hard to remain focus. I don’t like to go to the church, attend cell group and participate in christian activities, I really can’t change myself, I am someone who really don’t like to be restricted, I am someone who likes lots of freedom, I am just like a bird who like to fly in the vast sky, that’s why I really don’t wish to be restricted in my life.I read in the book as long as I accept christ into my heart, I will be able to go back to him, but I really wonder why couldn’t he just make the journey back to him easier, sometimes it’s just so hard for me and it’s just like there’s a barrier there somehow.

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