Heartbroken

Dear diary,

I am feeling so sad these few days, the feeling is horrible. I feel so depressed now. I just left my old workplace, and started my new full time job. I really can’t adapt to the new environment and I missed my old workplace/colleagues so much. My heart is so shattered and in pain now. I have been crying for like 6 days. Arghh…..I didn’t expect myself to be so "love sick", I didn’t expect myself to behave this manner. I have gotten so engaged with Be that I feel so helpless without her now. Life really sucks for me now. Feel like dying soon. My heart is so in pain. I wonder how I am going to survive all these months without them. My work is alright but the new unfamilar environment sucks…I guess I am really bad at adapting. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz……………….I don’t think I can face them anytime soon, at first I thought I could eat lunch with them or visit the office when I am free, but I guess the way it goes now, I can’t. I think I will just bawled if I see them again. Very very upset now.

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