.x. The Heart Index

They say the average crush lasts four months. If you pass that four month mark then you are already love. I’m a hopeless case. I wear my bleeding heart on my sleeve. Discarded constantly by the things I fall for.

I watched Up! on the weekend. Like the silly little emotional girl I am I cried through the whole thing. But then I remembered that you said you cry during that movie too and I didn’t feel so bad then. I look back on you and your whole existence in my life that it was some kind of fuzzy non-thing that really happened to me.

I’m tired of being lonely. I’m tired of attracting weirdo’s. I’m tired of not having someone.