Life just sucks

Yes this is a pity party of the year and I tried to stop as the surveys got my mind off of it all but right now allllll I want to do is cry. I don’t want to talk to anyone, I don’t want to hear anything, I just want to run to a field and scream my ass off. I just feel so disappointed and IDK why. I haven’t had a job for awhile now. That should be nothing new. Warden and gay boy have been going at it, nothing new. IDK I feel better just saying that. Maybe finding a way to smoke will help. She is into Dr Phil so maybe I can escape. I know her bitch comes back tomorrow so she wont be around as much as she is now. Well she won’t pay attention to as much as she normally would.

I am tired of applications…I have applied everywhere I know my information better then God does and it’s annoying. I am tired and need sleep.