rum and coke continued

so I am a little more relaxed today but I choose to blame it on the alcohol. Sorry to all those who read my entries for the language in my last entry. I was extemely fed up and just ready to hangyy  the proverbial white towel. Alcohol always makes it better but I know that will end tomorrow. I seriously think I need to be on medication to handle everything going on. I can’t just become an alcoholic. For one it’s not good for my kids and second it’s definitly not good for my liver. I just wish I had better coping skills. There has to be a way to make it through this. If there is one i haven’t found it yet. I know everyone is sick of reading my bitching by now but I have no other form of venting. I don’t know what else I could do. Every time I wake up and decide to force myself to have a better attitude, she says or does something that makes me wanna murder her face!!!! I don’t mean to be so evil. I really don’t. I like to think I am a good person. I don’t know what about her makes me feel this way. I welcome any positive comments anyone has to offer. God knows I have enough negative that I bring upon myself. I really need help. I know this is a life long decision and I need to know what to do to deal with this that includes keeping my husband.

 

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March 3, 2009

You love the kids too much to become an alcoholic, so thats out of the question. You are truly an amazing person don’t let anyone tell you differently, and sinc I know the monster-in-law I can honestly say that your not being evil, anyone who meets her usually wants to kill her within the first 5 minutes. Go easy on yourself, it’ll all work out in the end. It always does.