Me Against The World

Ok maybe that is a little dramatic but it certainly feels that way this week. I am just so overwhelmed and you would think I would be used to it. Some might even say I ask for it. Hell it’s only happened this EXACT same way a billion and one times before. I am just so beat down and wore out that I don’t know which way is up anymore.

It all started Sunday. We had a family get together Sunday as an early Thanksgiving. I have a very large family so I am not all that close to most of them. My uncle got remarried a couple of years ago and had more kids. So I have my cousin that is my age and cousins that are my kids age. Well the 2 boys are 11 and 13 my son is 9. As they were all outside playing they start telling my son his haircut is stupid (yeah because their mullets are soooo awesome) and that his shoes are stupid (black and red high tops that he loves) and that he sucks balls. Seriously? Because that is appropriate for children to say right? So my 12 year old daughter heard all of this and came to tell me. I went inside and got my uncle and asked him to come outside with me so we could take care of the situation. When I told him what was said he LAUGHED! It was not funny! So I tell my husband quietly that it is time to go. We get our things give the appropriate hugs and head out the door. My uncle is standing out there and says Hey, I think they were right (agreeing with what these little monsters have said to my son) So I asked him to please stop that I was already upset enough about the situation. He has the nerve to tell me not to get a shi**y attitude. I told him I would get whatever attitude I wanted when it came to my kids. We went back and forth for a few minutes my aunt’s husband joined in attacking me also and we finally were able to get to the van and leave. It was terrible and my kids have asked that we not go back for Christmas.

Then today I think if you all have read any of my entries you have read about the devilwitch Brandy. She is a hateful mean spirited evil person who I have just decided not to put myself around anymore because everytime I do she finds a way to hurt me. We have mutual friends and I have tried being nice to her for this purpose but it always bites me in the ass. I can only let it happen so many times and still blame her and not my own stupidity. So the person who is supposed to be my best friend has been hanging out with her lately, her business as long as I don’t have to be around her. It is very common knowledge that I refuse to be in her presence. Well, my best friend (We will call her L) L is having a birthday party for her son Sunday. A birthday party that I am footing the bill for because they are going through a rough patch. Do you know L invited Brandy to the birthday party!?!?! And I am unreasonable for saying I will just come hang out before the party because I won’t be around her. I think it is disrespectful to ask me to. It’s not as if L and Brandy are even close. Until last week they hardly even spoke. And she only tells me about the party that she blew me off and cancelled our plans so she could hang out with devilwitch. I am done with the whole situation. Everyone acts like I have no feelings. Like they can do me however the hell they want to and I will still be here. Well, guess what? Pedro is out I am done (yes they call me pedro long story)