i really hope this helps

I went to the dr last week because I really feel like I am losing my mind. Everytime I’m alone for even a few minutes I breakdown crying, even if there is nothing really going on to warrant it. Our house is a disaster area because I just cant seem to make myself get up and do anything other than the bare minimum. I walk around with this constant ache in my stomach. Not really an ache but kinda like the feeling you get if you’re in a car and you go down a steep hill really fast or that first drop on a roller coaster. I have that feeling constantly. I am pretty good and maintaining a calm exterior but right below the surface every inch of me is constantly shaking. I get like this every few months. Then somehow I manage to pull myself out of it. So, anyway, my husband finally convinced me to go to the dr after i snapped about him changing the tv station….the dr put me on depression meds and says there is a chance I may be bipolar. I’m not even sure what that means. I mean I get what bipolar means I just dont know what that means for me. I dont get manic. I dont make crazy impulsive decisions or bounce off the walls. I dont know. I’m just confused and she says the medicine will take a few weeks to work. I just really hope it does. I cant handle being like this anymore. Every time I get down its like I sink a little further than the time before. I dont know how many times I can pull myself back up…

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May 18, 2010

I hope the meds help. I used to go see a therapist and he believes that I am bipolar however I’ve never been officially diagnosed with bipolar.

May 18, 2010

I can’t believe after just one appt that a paid medical professional would slap on the bipolar label & write up an Rx for dangerous psych drugs. I hope you get a second opinion & other physical tests done. Your change in diet and exercise can effect you mentally as well. I just hate to see everyone just dismissed with drugs w/o any real attempt to find the cause.