Could it be true?
Jeff and I have been doing so good the last little while. He is truly making an effort to be the husband I fell in love with. Part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop…I’m waiting for the catch. I hate that I’m such a negative bitch all the time. Why can’t I be grateful for my life?
A little girl in our town died a few days ago from MRSA. She was 11. I have two 9 year old girls, a 6 year old son, and a 4 year old daughter. Her funeral was today and I couldn’t even imagine going and seeing this poor child laying there. My friend went and said the father didn’t show he just sent a note. He hasn’t left his bed since it happened. How do you resume a normal life after the loss of a child? I think about everytime I’ve told my children I’m too busy…maybe in a few minutes, punkin’. Mommy’s too tired to read to night, little bit. What if it’s the last opportunity I have to do something like that? I’m sure her father would give up his own life for just one more bedtime story or one more "but daddy please". I have to do better, I will do better. They will feel my love no matter how bad of a mood I am in. I will cherish every little whisper and smile. I swear I will. Because even if I am one of the fortunate souls who never loses a child to death, I will eventually lose them to adulthood. They will grow and become their own persons with their own lives.
I’m glad there is still a parent out there that really cares about their children. Much love. I’m not late by the way so i’m not sure, and i’m always thinking the worst so thats probably it.
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