12/12/2011

Things have calmed down here. I don’t feel like screaming at everyone or crying at the drop of a hat. I am still not speaking to anyone that causes me stress or insists on using me. I was feeling down about that decision and feeling like everything was my fault. Then I just realized that they are all idiots who didn’t care about me only what they could get out of me. I deserve better than that. Since I have weeded them all out I have found that I am very lonely. I will make new friends though. I will make good friends who enjoy my company, friends who want to be around me without wanting me to do something for them. The "friend" who I gave the money for the birthday party had her husband text my hubby telling him he had the money to repay me for the party. At first I wasn’t going to take it but then I decided, after the way they treated me it’s the least they could do. I took it and put it toward Christmas for the kids.