When

When is it too much?  A mistake made by a child, i can understand.  Not being in the right place I can make an argument for.  But now… I dont konw.  I am not sure that I even want to fight anymore for us.  You seem to have given up, saying its up to me, that only I know how I feel.  But at the same time, i need you to fight for me.  I need to know that you think its worth fighting for.  It hasnt been easy recently but I have been trying.  It almost doesnt seem you want to put the effort in to let me know you care.  I know you do, you let me sleep yesterday when I needed it.  But the major changes?  I dont see those happening.  and more imporatantly, I am not seeing the changes happening inside myself about how I feel.  I cant get comfortable, and thats something we always had… it was what we built on when we had little else.  I guess thats how I defined our love, a comfortable, companionat love, and thats missing now.   The passion is still there, but the comfort is gone.  We can have sex or mess around, but we cant make love anymore.  I have been hurt too bad to let you that close.  Can a close relationsihp survive without this? I dont know, and while I am willing to give it time to try to figure out, with these doubts in my mind I wonder if its doomed to failure from the start? but I am trying…