breath!

Oh God!  Its less than three months till he is due.  I am now scared to death.  How do I learn to be a good mommy in three months?  How do I get myself pulled together in that little amount of time?  Bry is sure that I will do just fine, but I am terrified!

At this point I am just taking it day by day.  I think that I have been sick the last few, but now I am not sure.  I have had a slight fever and thrown up every other meal.  I can eat it or not, but it still does not stay down.  And my insomnia is back, which is making life for bry hell as he tries to stay up with me, but has to work.  So then I feel guilty and cannot sleep.  It is a vicious  circle. 

Speaking of Bry, he really pissed me off the other day… usually I get over things, but this time I am having a really hard time doing so.  He forgot to request time off for the birth class.  I had told him about it multiple times, I had reminded him to put it on the calendar at work.  Its a freakin 2 hour class, you would think that he could get it off.  When he got his schedule, I reminded him to find someone to cover it… and I had to go to the damn class ALONE!  Granted, it is a seven week class, but at the same time, he really should have realized that it was a big deal to me… now he does not understand why I question if he wanted me to get pregnant or not.  (I know, pregnant woman logic,but at the same time, it was really important to me and I made sure he knew that!)  So all is not well here, and I hope he realizes it.  A coworker actually offered to drive him home because I had told him he would have to walk (its only 15 miles or so).  By the time class was over, I was not so upset that I would have made him do it, but I was still really mad (and this was on weds, so I am still pretty mad).  I guess we will have to talk about things that are important and what sort of respect we give them, that would be more productive than me sitting and stewing about things.
I guess that is all for now.