3/25/08

I am a bad, ungreatful, rude (insert your own adjitive here) daughter.  Bry, Soren and I are now back home.  On sat I had asked mom to stop making comments about how we are bad parents.  It was starting to drive me nuts, and make me feel bad about how horrible of a mother I am.  last night she was making more comments and dad was too.  as we sat down to dinner he felt the need to give me instructions on how to feed my son and when I made a joke about it, he snapped at me.  After everything that had been said all day it was just too much and I burst into tears.  I left the table and went into the bedroom for a while.  I was starting to pull myself together when mom came in and told me that I was being over senstive and that i was reading too much into the comments.  I may have been, but I had TOLD her on sat that they bothered me.  Then she told me about how I need to make him use his spoon more and that he doesnt talk enough and she thinks its because we ignore him too much (can you see why this would bother me?).  I had had enough and bryan was MAD (it takes a lot to make bryan mad).  So we packed up and came home.  its not worth feeling like crap and questioning ourselves as parents.  The part that really bothered me though, and I know it was supposed to but it made me feel absolutly worthless, was as i was packing mom walked by going to the bathroom and told me "your breaking my heart" and then refused to look at or egnolage me for the rest of the night.  So yeah, felt like i was damned if I stayed (and really with a response like that who wants to stay?) and damned if I left. So we left so taht bryan didnt have to do suicde watch for the next couple of days (yes I am that upset but trying to keep going)