The Past……come back

So I have a job that I give people advice about there life’s too and this little thing has been bugging me all day and I shouldn’t.  Its in the past and them knowing it I know helps other people.  I was over hearing a coworker about a "baby" that would fall and stop breathing.  I kind of was listening in and had my concerns as to what she was saying.  I heard CPS and look at the mother and why is this baby falling down?  I know she doesn’t have kids  although grown step kids but its not the same as having your own and knowing what to expect.  

We all know reading about pregnancy and being pregnant are 2 different things…. this is one of those cases.   She got off the phone and I asked how old the baby was.   A year old she told me.

I told her a story…..it was around probably the same time I started this Open Diary (aka my passed life) but as usual there was so much other stuff on I don’t think I ever mentioned it.  I took my son on his first train ride when he was 9 months old.  Amtrak.  Kalamazoo MI to Buffalo.  We had a lay over in Chicago. 2.5 hour one. We ate walked around and wasted time.    He wasn’t walking yet and the place was huge. I let him crawl around  in this cavernous place.  He got all excited and hit his head on the ground. Thud….echoed through the place.  I picked him up. He looked like he was going to let out a HUGE scream.  But nothing came out.  He stiffened up his face turned red…… then his eyes rolled in the back of his head, face lost all color  and he went limp.

I wanted to scream and I wanted to get a hold of some one but my heart was in my throat I couldn’t I completely froze.  I had in the back of my mind that a cousin of mine could hold her breath till she passed out but after that would breath again.  tick…. tick….. tick…..I went to get up,  time stood still.   He gasped for breath.  I could feel my whole body sigh in relief.  Color returned to his face . He moved around fine….. I held him for 10 minuted til he was completely normal. Relieved.   I didn’t know what to do. If I was home I would have taken him to the hospital to be checked out.   I was in Chicago. No family, no cell phone……and the rest of the trip to go.  He continued to play and act normal.   I watched him like a hawk.  We continued on the trip.

I told them a simpler version  of the story and that it wasn’t the last time that happened to him and explained other episodes.  I told her they were breath holding spells and they outgrow them………..Ithink about that and think about how he is today…. The mother’s having a neuro work up on the kid…  not a bad idea. Andrew’s disability is neurological in nature.  I knew he was wired different back then. He just didn’t fit the mold of the other kids….. I love him dearly but telling them made my feelings and emotions go to that time.

As far as today…or yesterday…. maybe i will write about it almost 10 yrs down the line like this one…… LOL  I should see if I did…..probably not as that was a hiccup compared to the other crap that was going on.

Yesterday was Gone Mentally insane  Thursday I swear…..