Just a Little Down

It bothers me more than I thought…..

The stupid book from husbands 20th High school reunion.  We will get copies made of it , they told me.  WTF!?!?! They got 2 copies of it.  The person in charge knowing that he had a family sent 2 copies to my IL’s. Who would you think they were meant for???  One for his parents and one for HIS FAMILY!! Right?!?! Am I wrong to assume that is what the intent of that was?  I was married to him for almost 9 yrs. (2.5months shy)  I dated and was friends with him MUCH longer than that….  I had a child with him.  I took care of him through the darkest time.  FUCKING BIL  was with his parents in the idea there was NOTHING wrong with him!!!  FUCK them.   BIL has the other book.   WTF!?!? And this is acceptable???  They gave it to him, not let him borrow it….have it as he went to school with them too.  We all graduated from the SAME SCHOOL!! I graduated with them too.   He was 1990..I was 1992 and his brother was 1993…….. How would you feel??? Yes I know it was his brother…. but still.  Wouldn’t you make it appoint to give it to his family, his son. NOT f@##ing copies??  ARGH!!!!!  And they see nothing wrong with this……  

Luckily through the magic of FB I got ahold of the person in charge that made the book and is sending me 2 copies just for me.  Should I have had to do that??? NO. but whatever…..I will pretend that it doesn’t bother me to them as I don’t want to fight with them over something trivial but it does hurt.   

I want to PT again and they pissed me off too….There’s one therapist that does a great job and will listen…the rest blow….I got the crappy ones again today and am seriously thinking why did I bother doing th is. Its been bugging me for 16 yrs now. I  have managed it for all this time and  this time why not try to see if it will improve more  and see if there are other things I can do….nope hasn’t been like that at all.  Its to the point that sitting up was making me dizzy and giving me a huge headache everyday.    This stupid PT tells me the best thing for it is to lie down!!! DUH!!! I would do that ALL DAY LONG if I could RETARD  but seeings as I have a baby and a life that is not an option is it ??? Traction helps a bit if the person doing it does it right and doesn’t tell me oh its just me.   I know what its suppose to feel like  and when it doesn’t  it doesn’t help. I got out of there today with NO relief and thought why the hell am I coming.  Friday I did but had the good therapist.  Not the one that insists on me doing exercises that make it hurt more and not do traction right.  I stretched and did MY usual bunch to relieve it. Got a muscle relaxant that I’m going to take now and all will hopefully be good.